a dozen eggs for me please

(images are not my pics, just stuff I was playing w/long time ago to make a t-shirt)

12. The big 12. A full dozen. Twelve. We will be moving on to (superovulatory, high tech) IUI #12. TWELVE! I am done to 1 fallopian tube and might get a little tiny bit emotional ( or crazy depending on who you ask), but we are plugging away and still putting one foot ahead of the other. Babysteps-haha. We won't be doing the iui for at least a month or two. We have a broken down car & a few other things to take care of first, but we will be slowly getting things in order. My menupor (sp?) is in the mail to me right now. 4 boxes with 5 vials each. If my dosage stays at 75 iu, that is enough for 4 cycles. If we up the dose, it is still enough for a couple tries. #12, #13, #14, #15...how high can we go?

Did you ever wake up & wonder "How in the heck did I get here?" Did you ever want to go back and shake your younger self & tell her "Wake up! Do you think you can just wait forever? Do you think you will be young forever? Who cares if things are perfect- they never are!" Ahhh regrets....I know, not helpful. ;)

Do whatever is best for you!

{ pic is on Mt St. Helens }

AF started finally. Still don't know what is going on, but what is new. I had a drastic drop down to coverline in 1 day. AF came Sun night at 10pm then Mon morning my temp had dropped 1 full degree exactly. Even w/the time difference, it is the most drastic I have ever had. blah

So the plan for next try has changed a little. I will try letrozal (pill) and menopur(injectible), rather than the clomid and gonal-f. I can't stand the clomid anymore & since I only had 1 (maybe2) good eggs last try, I want a change anyway. The nurse was trying to say I was responding to the meds fine so they would prob stay on same meds- but I told her that 1 egg when I am doing clomid AND INJECTIBLES does not seem like a very good response to me. Regardless, I can't stand the headaches, crabbiness, and crap that I get from the clomid. 7 months of it is enough. Letrozal is supposed to have fewer side affects and do similar work as clomid. Has anyone tried both? Was there a difference for you? DP and I talked about it and we are going to use 2 vials {at least}, from now on too. I know, I know Dr F says there's no meaningful differences in using 2 vials, ...we don't see a significant increase with 2 iui's... BUT I have seen studies on pubmed and other research sites and they point at an increase! My plan is to do 12/34 hours past trigger, or close to it. That was the timing that had the best results in the study. Dr F also poopoos my thought that I was O'ing the morning after I had my trigger shot, but I had a big sharp pinging pain and it was sudden, over quick, and never as strong after that again. I also didn't get pregnant since we didn't do my iui until 35 hrs past trigger and my temps had already gone up. I know most women statistically O 36-44 hrs past trigger shot, but my temps, feelings, and O pain all tell me I went early! I am covering all the bases next time I don't care what he says. We will stay with our new bank and either the same donor or our second choice donor. They are the top 2 producers at that bank, and the vial we saw backs that up!

http://staging.inciid.org/fertinews/iuitiming.html here is the summary of double vs single iui study

I am also actively searching for a new job that has at least partial fertility care coverage. I hope that I can find a new job soon- one that pays better and covers some of our fertility costs! FX! I am also searching for ivf/iui studies or programs that cover part/all the costs. With my blocked tube, I would be happy to do ivf if it was paid for, we just can't afford it on our own. So until then I will keep trying superovulation iui's. ( Once again does 1 or 2 eggs sound like "superovulation IUI" went well? That is not doing well, I am sorry! Jeez Let's up the doses or something! )

I hope everyone is doing well! :) Have a good day! Did I mention it is storming here and it scares K when it thunders, heeheehee- cute. Poor thing, I can't imagine since I think it is relaxing. She thinks I'm crazy, BTW.

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*Before you get excited about the pic, it is old- from my m/c this spring. I have it up again to show why I took both opk & hpt even though you are generally not supposed to use an opk as an hpt. In the pic is the digital hpt shows pos, and at bottom of the pic is an opk which has clear two lines, just not equal in color. The middle test is my real hpt Target brand, which only has the faintest of lines making a cross, you can't even really see the vertical line in the pic it is so light. I was out of hpt's so took the opk. When that showed the clear 2 lines I got the digitals. SO in my mind, at least for me, opk's looked like a more sensitive hpt than the real hpt's. Which is why I have tried both this month, thinking it might just be really early. But even this morning, hpt= -. I don't normally have a continual + opk's through out my cycle either.

Thanks for checkin in on me guys! :) I am ok, feels like af should be coming soon this morning,-some little cramps- but temps still up & my big progesterone veins came back yesterday. Michelle, if you click on the rainbow on the right side of screen, it will take you to my FF chart. ( the rainbow is partially cut off cuz I don't know how to make things fit properly on that side screen! sorry) I don't think I am pregnant really, just more worried that something is messed up medically/hormonally/? My temps have never stayed up before, unless pregnant of course. I also have the positive opk's, but neg hpt's. I am cd 31 today, 18 dpiui. I had a neg beta done on 14 dpiui too. I know positive hpt/opk's all the time, or at the wrong times can be a sign of something medically wrong, some cancers for example. I just don't know what is going on at all.