(please sing title) I hate waiting, waiting & crawling, all I want to do is run to you baby!

Thanks for all the recent comments girls! :) That pic is one of my favs too, friendly little dragonfly didn't seem to mind getting his pic taken at all, LOL! Taco John's is like Taco Bell, they have salty tator tots-potato oles? and oniony bean/cheese burritos, which I am sure are both horrible for me. A cherry limeaid sounds great! Our stove is filling up fast, I hope I don't spill anything with all these pans! ;) FX! ((hugs))

The great job hunt is still on. I hope I find one with IVF benefits and an adoption credit! Hot diggity! I didn't get anymore resumes in since I have been horribly sick the whole second half of this week. OMGoodness. I thought it was the flu at first, but it seems to be a sinus infection now, so that is my final guess. Here is breakdown of the fun- fever 101.87, body aches, bone ache, headache, even skin ache, yuck. Morphing into splitting headache and ending in stuffy nose, clicking ears, and the whole time I had general tiredness and fatigue. I slept 11 hours the first two nights and rested the next night, thought I was ok today so went shopping with Mom and sis and had to take nap as soon as I was done. To be fair, shopping with them is "power" shopping and is always tiring, though not to the point of a nap. Yesterday I was afraid the headache would actually kill me, but finally some migraine medicine kicked in & I didn't have to cry anymore. Fun huh? I am keeping sinus and migraine pills handy for a while. So I haven't finished getting my other resume kit all together yet. You forgive me though right? ;)

I think I erased something on the computer I shouldn't have because I have my new picture cd here, but can't get it uploaded onto computer to share here! I will work on it for next time though. arg I am also taking some pics of some of my cards and journals so other scrapbookers, start getting your pics ready too!

So I have been exploring adoption options and a few things that I need to have for work, are also needed for adoption. Mandatory child abuse reporter, and CPR/1st Aid certificates. I am getting my cpr renewal this week and will sign up for next child abuse renewal too, then all of those will be current- check mark. I am calling local college Monday to see when next foster care parent training is being held, so might be signing up-second check mark. I could use most of these classes for work or adoption so very handy. I contacted a lawyer finding service and left my questions about the adoption so someone can call me back w/advice and their card for when/if the time comes that I need their services- so lawyer check mark.

I have been doing some research on adoption funding options. ugh. It seems to be recommended to try and fund raise on your own as well as use loans, grants, own money and whatever. So I have been thinking of how to do some kind of fundraiser. I am considering trying to sell ribbons and bracelets for the adoption. Fertility bracelets, adoption ribbons and so on. There are some bigger items I could sell also. I could advertise here, but does anyone know of a nice place to get my own website so I could sell items to raise some adoption funds? Preferably a free website, but at least one that is not expensive! I would need to be able to show pics and would love to have a way for ppl to pay online through the site (shopping cart?). Does anyone know where to get my own website? Any other advice or ideas on this plan? Better ways to raise funds?

No word from our friends friend (ie young pregnant girl w/possible baby). Also no af yet for me and no idea when we can do another iui yet. Basically we are just in "taking care of the boring details, but nothing exciting happening" limbo. :0 Aaahhh, I hate this kind of limbo! I like to see big steps, not baby preparation steps.

Baby sparkles to all my friends here in blogger world & at NW! Hope things are moving faster for all of you. :) Loves, TK

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Couple random tidbits...

http://worldbreastfeedingweek.org/ it is World Breastfeeding Week!

http://www.cosmeticsdatabase.com/ this is great site to see what stuff is in your shampoo or makeup. I was very suprised that even brands I thought would be safe and natural, were not always. :( Now, I need to make a list of the safe brands to shop with, & put it in my purse!

They are opening a Sonic and a Taco Johns near my work. :0

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/sites/entrez this is where I look up medical research online for TTC info I can trust.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/sites/entrez?Db=pubmed&Cmd=ShowDetailView&TermToSearch=10521098&ordinalpos=15&itool=EntrezSystem2.PEntrez.Pubmed.Pubmed_ResultsPanel.Pubmed_RVDocSum I will be using 12/34 timing or close to it, on future iui's.

I have a horrible memory. Resumes and job apps are a nightmare....starting wage and ending wage on every job I have had since high school?! I don't know...when I leave a job it goes into the who cares anymore file in my head! aaarrrggg. Just call the company and ask them.

I am developing film tomorrow so new pics soon, and going to dmv for new tags if they are open.

pic is dragonfly in my garden

very very interesting, hhhhmmmm

{pic=K in ocean, OR 2006) *K confirmed we had 2 shipments from TSBofC before we wnt to NW so we have done 13 insems. That is new official #.

K is finally opening to the idea of adoption. She wants to try harder to knock me up now to avoid adoption. Either way would get me a baby so is fine by me, LOL.

It came up because our friend brought up an interesting idea to us. A friend of a friend is pregnant again, has a child already that her parents are raising, and has had a couple of abortions. She is young, teen or early 20's. So our friend said to other girl's friend..."Do you think she would consider adoption instead? K and T have been trying so hard for so long, I could ask if they would want to adopt." They agreed to ask us and her. Of course when she called here, I started crying and said I would agree to whatever she wanted and we would be forever grateful and blessed if she chose to do that. K cried too, but had reservations- same as she has had for any adoptions...will the mom change her mind & take the baby away? How long until the birth parents can't change their mind anymore? Can we afford it? How devastated would we be if it fell through? Could we recover?

We know they haven't even talked to her yet, it is just a glimmer of a chance, floating on a whisper of hope. So we are exploring ALL our options now, & I told K I will keep trying to get pregnant, but I will ALSO start planning for adoption, private or foster-any we can afford. If we hear any news from this girl about choosing to place the baby w/us for adoption, we are definately ready to jump all over it! Scared something might go wrong, but thrilled too! Oh, could the answer even be that easy?!

If you meditate or pray or send energy, please send some thoughts out that something resolves soon so we can have our baby ( bio or not, or both!)!